Joy vs Happiness

If you're looking for a happy blog to read, skip this one tonight...sorry. I miss the boyfriend...a lot...this whole distance thing sucks. Our schedules are allowing us to talk more this summer than we got to last summer...but it still stinks. Today wasn't a bad day by any means, ths whole past week has just been weird/rough. I'm still not totally adjusted to being home. I feel like an alien since I've been back. My heart, attitude, and entire demeanor has changed so much thanks to the wonderful people I was blessed to meet and work with in Myanmar...but no one at home can understand just how much of an impact it had. I admit, I didn't understand until I experienced it myself. So my big thought for the evning is this: it's okay to be sad even with God as my source of everything. He never promised things would be easy, or fun. He did promise to never leave us or give us more than we can handle, which brings me great comfort. But tonight it was like He was saying to me, "Don't feel bad about being sad right now...it's okay to be sad." I would have thought after all these years I would have learned to accept the fact that I am not Wonder Woman. I can't do it all and it's okay to not be happy all the time. Not trying to bring anyone else down, just maybe trying to get the point across that express your emotions as you need to. It helps much more than holding it all in.