My Hope is in You

This will be short...I'm at school.  My students are at Music.  They will be back in about 13 minutes.

I am a mess this morning.  I have been a mess for the past few weeks, to be totally honest.  For many reasons.

1.  I have been sick.  I went to the doctor last Tuesday, got some medicine that reacted badly and caused my throat to swell and make it hard for me to breathe...no big deal, right?  I'm done with the medicine, throat isn't swelling, but I'm not feeling a lot better which is a bummer. 

2.  I'm exhausted!  I do this to myself all the time...I try to do too much, and I know it.  I am LOVING my job.  I am so sad that I only have 3 weeks left teaching.  Trying to balance everything is hard.  Each day is an adventure and I love it.  Even the bad/stressful stuff that I have to do every day.  There's no other job on earth I'd rather do.

3.  I suck at being okay with being 2 1/2 hours away from the love of my life.  Not that I think anyone should be okay with that, but I cried for like 45 minutes straight on Saturday about it.  I cried at church yesterday. I went into another teacher's room this morning and cried about it.  Needless to say, I hate it, and I am having a very hard time with it.  Monday-Friday sucks because I never know when Zach is free, never know when I'll get to talk to him, don't know if I'll be bothering him if I text him, on and on and on...I apologize for dwelling on it, but it's hard.  Zach saw something from one of his friends on facebook who was boo hooing about being away from her bf for like a week, and it was the first time in 6 years that they had been apart for more than 4 days...I want to punch people like that in the face, to be totally honest, because they have no idea.  Please don't be offended by that statement...

Even though I'm a mess, I have made a great friend across the hallway.  Someone that I never in my wildest imagination thought I'd be friends with because we had a terrible falling out when I was in high school.  She has been such a great support system for me this school year.  She made me a CD this weekend and the first song on it was "My Hope Is In You" by Aaron Shust.  And that's all there is to it.  My hope is in God and all that He has planned.  He even knows when the bad days are going to happen, but I know He can bring good out of them because that's just how He rolls.  I'm so thankful He has put people in my life to help me through it.  People that are 2 1/2 hours away, 2 1/2 minutes, and even people on the other side of the world that I know will pray for me and help me in any way they can.  God rocks.